I was going to do a vlog tonight…I was going to say hi and “officially” introduced myself. But then I got home from work late, totally forgetting about the vlog, and got into my pajamas. My make up is off and my hair is up in a messy ponytail.
Doesn’t matter, though, because I’m posting no matter what.Guys, it’s December! DECEMBER! Can you believe it? It’s like November didn’t even happen! Like we flew through it! I barely remembered what happened in November!
There’s only one goal I have for December and it’s to just be. Sure, I want to write more and crochet and read, but really I just want to be. I always stress myself out, worrying about what I have done and what I need to get done.
To me, everything seems to be super important and I manage to worry so much about that, that I don’t get to actually enjoy my life. Enjoy the things that I like to do. Do you know how it feels to feel like you’re always falling behind? Always missing out on something.
I plan to become a mother soon (hopefully!) and I want to make sure that I am present for them. I want to enjoy where I’m at and what I can. I don’t want to have to worry about something that will never come, that will never be.
So I’m focusing on myself and what makes me happy. If that’s writing, great, crocheting, even better…but if it’s none of that, I’m okay with that too. I’m taking it one day at a time and I’m learning to love myself just the way I am.
I want to be more present, more relaxed because, in the end, that’s all that matters.